sσηg-нuят вy Jσнηηy Cαsн

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way.


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"Hurt" is almost haunting, as it was recorded just prior to Cash's untimely death. Whether or not a Johnny Cash fan, this performance is powerful and deep with emotion.

яєgяєт...!!!

10th Grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl
next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I
stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was
mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew
it.

After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the
notes she had missed the day before and handed them to
her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the
cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I
don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just
too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was
in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had
broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she
didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to
her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing
she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.

She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on
the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm
just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date
is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't
have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that
if neither of us had dates, we would go together just
as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after
everything was over, I was standing at her front door
step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared
at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine,
but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it.
Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave
me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her
to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love
her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I
could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her
perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get
her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't
notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone
went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and
cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from
my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I
want her to know that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is
getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and
drive off to her new life, married to another man. I
wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like
that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she
came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and
kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her
to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love
her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl
who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they
read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school
years. This is what it read:

I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't
notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell
him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just
friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't
know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!

I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.

I Love You

sσηg-ƒu¢к ιт

Whoa oh oh

Ooh hooh
No No No

[Verse 1:]
See i dont, know why, i liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, i loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know that i feel

[chorus:]
Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

[verse 2:]
You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, i heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another hag, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah

Ya questioned, did i care
You could ask anyone, i even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but i truly mean im sad
It hurt real bad, i cant sweat that, cuz i loved a hoe

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
[Until the end]

ραsт...!!!

There was a time when life seems to be beautiful & I really wanna live it,

When I can feel you near mah soul instead of physical separations,

When I just love to laugh & feel the joy within mah life,

When reality was more beautiful than dreams;

That was the time when your love enlightens the love within me……!!!

But now the time changed the laws of life,

I’m no longer as before…no longer alive, m dead now…

Buried within mah own physical boundaries…m okay…alone!!!

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ѕσηg-25 мιηυтєs

After some time I've finally made up my mind

She is the girl and I really want to make her mine

I'm searching everywhere to find her again

To tell her I love her

And I'm sorry about the things I ve done

I find her standing in front of the church

The only place in town where I didn't search

She looks so happy in her wedding dress

But she's crying while she's saying this

Chorus:

Boy I missed your kisses all the time but this is

Twenty five minutes too late

Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry you are

Twenty five minutes too late

Against the wind I'm going home again

Wishing be back to the time when we were more than

Friends

Still I see her in front of the church

The only place in town where I didn't search

She looks so happy in her wedding dress

But she's cried while she's saying this

Chorus:

Out in the streets

Places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat

Inside my head

Still I can hear the words she said

I can still hear what she said .

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ωнαтs ιƒ…!!!

 

Who loves to walk alone???

but what if this is the only choice I have;

 

I would love to laugh 'n' enjoy,
but what if you are the only one I wanna live with;
 

I can wait foe you, foe a lifetime,
but what if I knew that you are neva gonna come back;

 
Now the tears are dried. And I have lost the immortal part of mine....HOPE,

But what if whenever I look towards the sky, I wish I could turn back the circle of time 'n' stop you from leaving mah hand & left me alone.
 
 
Alas!!! I always knew that looking back on mah tears would someday make me laugh, but I neva knew that looking back on mah laughter would someday make me cry...!!!

คαj внι yαα∂ нαι мujнє...!!!

Tera milna woh mujhse,

   Woh pareshan hona,

Woh ghabrana hardam,

   Woh raato ko rona,

Mujhse haskar batana,

   Woh baatein sabhi ki,

Aaj bhi yaad hai mujhe…

 

Woh tera chup rehna,

   Meri har baat sehna,

Woh dhere se ruk kar,

   Tera “haye ram” kehna,

Aadat wahi teri pal~pal ulajhne ki,

Aaj bhi yaad hai mujhe…!!!

 

 

Pyar us ehsaas ka naam hai,

Jise har pal mehsus kiya ja sakta hai.

 

Beshak aaj tu mere pass nahi hai,

Aur bahut kuch main bhool bhi gaya hu…

 

Magar teri woh muskurahat,

   woh khushboo…

Aur woh aakhen bhulaye nahi bhulti…

 

Aaj bhi yaad hai mujhe…!!!

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Oη¢є uρση α тιмє...!!!

Once upon a time, son

they used to laugh with their hearts

and laugh with their eyes;

but now they laugh with their teeth

while their ice block cold eyes

search behind my shadow,

 

There was a time indeeds

they used to shake hands with their hearts

but that’s gone, son.

Now they shake hands without hearts

while their left hand search…

…my empty pockets.

 

“Feel at Home,” Come again,”

they say, & when I come

again & feel

at home, once, twice

but there will be no thrice

for then I find doors shut on me.

 

So, I have learnt many things, son

I have learn to wear many faces

like dresses-home face, office face

Streetface, hostface, cocktailface,

with all their conforming smiles

like a fixed portrait smile

 

And I have learned, too,

to laugh with only my teeth

& shake hands without my heart

I have also learnt to say, “Good bye”

when I mean ‘Good riddance’;

To say ‘Glad to meet you’

without being glad; & to say It’s been

nice talking to you, after being bored.

 

But believe me, son

I want to be what I used to be

when I was like you

I want to unlearn all these muting things

Most of all, I want to relearn

how to laugh, for my laugh in the mirror

shows only my teeth like a shake’s bare fangs!

 

So show me son

how to laugh; show me how

I used to laugh & smile

Once upon a time…when I was like you…!!!

  Gabriel Okara

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Its one of mah favorite poem, That I have read it in mah school days. Hope u like it too…!!! 

Lαsт ωιsн

Ι ωαηηα ∂ιє ωнιℓє yσu ℓσvє мє,

ωнιℓє yєт yσu нσℓ∂ мє ƒαιя

ωнιℓє ℓαugнтєя ℓιєs uρση мy ℓιρs

คη∂ ℓιgнтs αяє ιη мy нαιя

 

Ι ωαηηα ∂ιє ωнιℓє yσu ℓσvє мє,

σн ωнσ ωσuℓ∂ ¢αяє тσ ℓιvє

тιℓℓ ℓσvє нαs ησтнιη мσяє тσ αsк

คη∂ ησтнιη мσяє тσ gιvє

 

Ι ωαηηα ∂ιє…!!!

คη∂ тнєy sαys guys αяє ℓιαяs...!!!

Heartening...

He met her at a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he was so normal, nobody paid attention to him. At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised, but due to being polite, she promised. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, and she thought to herself, "Please, let me go home..."

Suddenly he asked the waiter, "Would you please give me some salt? I’d like to put it in my coffee." Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously, "Why you have this hobby?"

He replied, "When I was a little boy, I lived near the sea, I liked playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there." While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched. That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home... Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story. They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him!

Thanks to his salty coffee! Then the story was just like every beautiful love story, the princess married to the prince, and then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that’s the way he liked it.

 

After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said, "My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life's lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty  coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything... Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth, I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste... But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you.

Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again."

 

Her tears made the letter totally wet. Someday, someone asked her, "What's the taste of salty coffee?" She replied, "It's sweet." 

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I have heard many times...saying gals, that guys are liars & im sure you have heard too.

but no one tries to understand the reason behind their lies.....

...its time to think again!!!